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BEFORE I BEGIN, I WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT THIS IS NOT A STORY OF SELF-PITY; IT IS TO GIVE THE READER UNDERSTANDING OF HOW THE TOTAL TURN-AROUND IN MY LIFE CAME ABOUT AND THE EVENTS WHICH LED TO IT. THIS STORY IS HERE TO HELP PEOPLE. I'M NOT GOING TO NAME ANYONE IN THIS ACCOUNT.
I AM 32. WHEN I WAS 24 I 'SAW THE LIGHT', LITERALLY!
I WAS HEAVILY ABUSED (NOT SEXUALLY) THROUGHOUT CHILDHOOD AND ADOLESCENCE AND I WAS SUICIDAL FOR MANY YEARS, IN THE LATTER HALF OF MY LIFE.
I PRAYED ABOUT some THINGS WHEN I WAS A CHILD AND MY PRAYERS WERE ALWAYS ANSWERED. I INITIALLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS FROM A VERY YOUNG AGE.
WHEN I WENT INTO SECONDARY SCHOOL I FELL UNDER IMMENSE PEER-PRESSURE. I WAS DARED TO DO THINGS WHICH I KNEW WERE WRONG, FOR EXAMPLE, A 'OUIJA-BOARD.' I REFUSED AT FIRST BECAUSE I REMEMBERED MY MOTHER SAYING THAT THEY WERE NOT OF GOD, THAT THEY WERE DANGEROUS. I WAS VERY SCARED, BUT I FINALLY CAVED-IN AND TOOK PART.
AFTER THE 'OUIJA-BOARD' MY LIFE BECAME EVEN WORSE. IT COMPLETELY SPIRALLED OUT OF CONTROL. I DIDN'T KNOW IT AT THE TIME, BUT I HAD OPENED THE DOOR FOR TERRIBLE THINGS TO COME INTO MY LIFE BY PARTICIPATING IN IT.
FOLLOWING THIS, I WAS PERSUADED TO TAKE DRUGS, I DRANK EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF ALCHOHOL, I SHOPLIFTED WHEN DARED TO AND I FREQUENTLY LIED ABOUT WHERE I WAS GOING TO AT NIGHT (FROM THE AGE OF APPROX 13). I LET WHOEVER WANTED TO, TO USE AND WALK ALL OVER ME. I WAS COMPLETELY ON THE WRONG PATH... THE ROAD TO DISASTER...
WHEN I WAS 17 I GOT INVOLVED IN AN EXTREMELY VIOLENT AND ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP. I WAS SO DAMAGED FROM MY CHILDHOOD AND TEENAGE YEARS THAT I THOUGHT I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT HIM. I WAS SO DESPERATE FOR LOVE. HE'D SPIT IN MY FACE, KICK ME, SCREAM AT ME, THROW BEER OVER ME IF HE DIDN'T LIKE THE WAY I LOOKED, ABUSE AND HUMILIATE ME SEXUALLY, HE WENT WITH OTHER WOMEN, THE LIST GOES ON... I EVENTUALLY ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP, BUT NOT BEFORE HE ATTEMPTED TO MURDER ME...
HE STRANGLED ME UNTIL I BECAME UNCONSCIOUS. I WAS ACTUALLY DEAD FOR APPROX 15 SECONDS. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS STRANGE, BUT I SAW MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE ME, LIKE FLASHES OF A CAMERA, AND I HAD AN OUT-OF-BODY EXPERIENCE WHERE MY SPIRIT WAS GOING TO HELL. I WAS WHIZZING DOWN A BLACK TUBE, SIMILAR TO A WATER TUBE. NOTE THAT I WAS GOING DOWN! HEAVEN IS NOT DOWN!...
AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE I COMPLETELY BELIEVED IN JESUS, I WAS LOVING AND I WAS GOOD TO PEOPLE, BUT... I HAD NOT REPENTED AND TURNED AWAY FROM SIN! I DID NOT KNOW WHAT SIN WAS! I THOUGHT GOD DID NOT MIND WHAT WE DID!...
ANYWAY, BY GOD'S GRACE AND MERCY I AWOKE FROM CERTAIN DEATH. THE GUY THEN GRABBED A KNIFE AND TRIED TO PLUNGE IT INTO MY HEART. I TRIED TO HOLD THE KNIFE BACK AS HE CONTINUED TO PUSH IT TOWARDS ME. I WAS SCREAMING HYSTERICALLY AND THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE...
JUST AT THE POINT WHERE I THOUGHT I WAS A GONER, AN INCREDIBLE LIGHT AND PEACE CAME OVER ME AND I FOUND MYSELF CALMING HIM DOWN... THE WORDS WERE JUST COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH!
I ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP AND GOT SERIOUSLY INVOLVED WITH ANOTHER MAN, BUT HE ALSO BECAME SEVERELY VIOLENT AND ABUSIVE. ON ONE OCCASION, HE DRAGGED ME DOWN THE ROAD BY MY HAIR BELLOWING "WHORE" AT THE TOP OF HIS VOICE. THE NEIGHBOURHOOD JUST LOOKED ON. MY CRIME WAS THAT A YOUNG MAN WHO I'D NEVER MET, HAD SMILED AT ME.
SHORTLY AFTER THAT, HE WAS UNFAITHFUL TO ME AND HAD INTERCOURSE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I ENDED OUR RELATIONSHIP NOT LONG AFTERWARDS, FOR ANOTHER MAN (WHICH DIDN'T LAST).
ROUGHLY 8 MONTHS LATER, MY PRAYERS BEGAN TO GET ANSWERED AGAIN (THEY WERE ANSWERED WHEN I WAS A CHILD, BUT WERE NOT ANSWERED DURING MY TIME OF REBELLION)...
NOW THAT MY PRAYERS WERE BEING ANSWERED AGAIN EVERYTHING WAS GOING GREAT, BUT THEN I BROKE A COMMANDMENT. THE MOMENT I BROKE THE COMMANDMENT, MY ANSWERED PRAYERS FELL APART! I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND AND SCREAMED TO GOD, "WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME?!" I WAS HYSTERICAL, ABSOLUTELY DISTRAUGHT...
I WENT HOME AND GRABBED A BIBLE, WHICH FUNNILY ENOUGH I'D PICKED-UP FROM MY PARENTS HOUSE 2 DAYS EARLIER. I CRIED TO GOD "SPEAK TO ME!" I OPENED THE BIBLE, BUT NOTHING MADE SENSE. I WENT TO THE BATHROOM, STILL DEVASTATED, CRYING "I DON'T UNDERSTAND!"...
WHEN I CAME BACK, THE BIBLE WAS ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PAGE! IT COULD NOT HAVE BLOWN OPEN BECAUSE I HAD LAYED IT FACE-DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND I WAS THE ONLY PERSON IN THE FLAT!...
I BEGAN TO READ AND TOTALLY UNDERSTOOD! THE LORD SHOWED ME PSALM 38, WHICH CLEARLY SPEAKS ABOUT THE SUFFERING WHICH FALLS ON THOSE WHO DO NOT LISTEN TO HIM. I HAD SUFFERED BECAUSE OF MY SIN! I HAD DONE THINGS WHICH GOD SAYS NOT TO DO: THE ONE-TIME OUIJA-BOARD, PARTYING ON DRUGS, THE 'DARED' SHOPLIFTING, EXCESSIVE DRINKING, SEX WHEN NOT MARRIED, EVEN LITTLE FIBS AND GOSSIPING (THERE WERE OTHER THINGS TOO WHICH I'M NOT GOING TO BRING SHAME ON MYSELF BY MENTIONING)...
I IMMEDIATELY WAILED REPENTANCE, VOWED NEVER TO DO ANY OF THOSE THING AGAIN AND CRIED-OUT "JESUS, LET YOUR WILL BE DONE FOR MY LIFE!"
I BEGAN TO EXPERIENCE INCREDIBLE THINGS. THE VISIBLE LIGHT OF GOD'S GLORY ACTUALLY APPEARED OVER ME. IT SURROUNDED ME... LITERALLY... PHYSICALLY. I FELT SO IN LOVE WITH JESUS.
"IN THE LAST DAYS, GOD SAYS, I WILL POUR OUT MY HOLY SPIRIT ON ALL PEOPLE... I WILL SHOW WONDERS IN THE HEAVEN ABOVE AND SIGNS ON THE EARTH BELOW." (NIV- ACTS 2:17&19). NOTE THAT GOD SAYS "LAST DAYS" AND "ALL PEOPLE"!
IT WAS AROUND 8 YEARS AGO THAT I REPENTED. AS A CHRISTIAN, I'M MUCH STRONGER, HAPPIER AND CONFIDENT... AND I RESPECT MYSELF! I WOULD NEVER LET ANYONE TREAT ME THAT WAY AGAIN... BUT I have FORGIVEN THEM AND I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF, WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT. GOD HAS HEALED ME SO MUCH. HE IS DOING GREAT THINGS IN MY LIFE.
IF YOU'VE NEVER HAD A REAL EXPERIENCE WITH JESUS I ENCOURAGE YOU TO READ A NEW TESTAMENT BIBLE AND TO PRAY AND TALK TO HIM. PERHAPS YOU COULD BEGIN BY SAYING THIS PRAYER:
"DEAR GOD. THANK YOU FOR YOUR AMAZING LOVE. THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS. I ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME IF I HAVE DONE ANYTHING WHICH YOU SAY NOT TO DO. PLEASE HELP ME TO TURN AWAY FROM WHAT YOU SAY IS WRONG. JESUS, LET YOUR WILL BE DONE FOR MY LIFE. FILL ME WITH YOUR HOLY SPIRIT. THANK YOU. AMEN." JESUS LOVES YOU!
I WRITE AND SING DANCE, R&B AND GOSPEL SONGS. YOU CAN HEAR THEM AT: www.myspace.com/suzic7
I'M AVAILABLE TO SPEAK AT YOUR CHURCHES, OUTREACHES AND SCHOOLS (I WOULD TONE IT DOWN IF SPEAKING TO YOUNG PEOPLE). YOU CAN CONTACT ME VIA: www.taskjesus.co.uk OR THROUGH THE 'MYSPACE' ADDRESS ABOVE, OR AT: suzic7@yahoo.com (E-MAIL ADDRESS IS FOR BOOKINGS ONLY).
FEEL FREE TO PRINT AND DISTRIBUTE THIS TESTIMONY IF THERE IS ANYBODY YOU THINK IT COULD HELP.
GOD BLESS.
I AM 32. WHEN I WAS 24 I 'SAW THE LIGHT', LITERALLY!
I WAS HEAVILY ABUSED (NOT SEXUALLY) THROUGHOUT CHILDHOOD AND ADOLESCENCE AND I WAS SUICIDAL FOR MANY YEARS, IN THE LATTER HALF OF MY LIFE.
I PRAYED ABOUT some THINGS WHEN I WAS A CHILD AND MY PRAYERS WERE ALWAYS ANSWERED. I INITIALLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS FROM A VERY YOUNG AGE.
WHEN I WENT INTO SECONDARY SCHOOL I FELL UNDER IMMENSE PEER-PRESSURE. I WAS DARED TO DO THINGS WHICH I KNEW WERE WRONG, FOR EXAMPLE, A 'OUIJA-BOARD.' I REFUSED AT FIRST BECAUSE I REMEMBERED MY MOTHER SAYING THAT THEY WERE NOT OF GOD, THAT THEY WERE DANGEROUS. I WAS VERY SCARED, BUT I FINALLY CAVED-IN AND TOOK PART.
AFTER THE 'OUIJA-BOARD' MY LIFE BECAME EVEN WORSE. IT COMPLETELY SPIRALLED OUT OF CONTROL. I DIDN'T KNOW IT AT THE TIME, BUT I HAD OPENED THE DOOR FOR TERRIBLE THINGS TO COME INTO MY LIFE BY PARTICIPATING IN IT.
FOLLOWING THIS, I WAS PERSUADED TO TAKE DRUGS, I DRANK EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF ALCHOHOL, I SHOPLIFTED WHEN DARED TO AND I FREQUENTLY LIED ABOUT WHERE I WAS GOING TO AT NIGHT (FROM THE AGE OF APPROX 13). I LET WHOEVER WANTED TO, TO USE AND WALK ALL OVER ME. I WAS COMPLETELY ON THE WRONG PATH... THE ROAD TO DISASTER...
WHEN I WAS 17 I GOT INVOLVED IN AN EXTREMELY VIOLENT AND ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP. I WAS SO DAMAGED FROM MY CHILDHOOD AND TEENAGE YEARS THAT I THOUGHT I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT HIM. I WAS SO DESPERATE FOR LOVE. HE'D SPIT IN MY FACE, KICK ME, SCREAM AT ME, THROW BEER OVER ME IF HE DIDN'T LIKE THE WAY I LOOKED, ABUSE AND HUMILIATE ME SEXUALLY, HE WENT WITH OTHER WOMEN, THE LIST GOES ON... I EVENTUALLY ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP, BUT NOT BEFORE HE ATTEMPTED TO MURDER ME...
HE STRANGLED ME UNTIL I BECAME UNCONSCIOUS. I WAS ACTUALLY DEAD FOR APPROX 15 SECONDS. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS STRANGE, BUT I SAW MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE ME, LIKE FLASHES OF A CAMERA, AND I HAD AN OUT-OF-BODY EXPERIENCE WHERE MY SPIRIT WAS GOING TO HELL. I WAS WHIZZING DOWN A BLACK TUBE, SIMILAR TO A WATER TUBE. NOTE THAT I WAS GOING DOWN! HEAVEN IS NOT DOWN!...
AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE I COMPLETELY BELIEVED IN JESUS, I WAS LOVING AND I WAS GOOD TO PEOPLE, BUT... I HAD NOT REPENTED AND TURNED AWAY FROM SIN! I DID NOT KNOW WHAT SIN WAS! I THOUGHT GOD DID NOT MIND WHAT WE DID!...
ANYWAY, BY GOD'S GRACE AND MERCY I AWOKE FROM CERTAIN DEATH. THE GUY THEN GRABBED A KNIFE AND TRIED TO PLUNGE IT INTO MY HEART. I TRIED TO HOLD THE KNIFE BACK AS HE CONTINUED TO PUSH IT TOWARDS ME. I WAS SCREAMING HYSTERICALLY AND THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE...
JUST AT THE POINT WHERE I THOUGHT I WAS A GONER, AN INCREDIBLE LIGHT AND PEACE CAME OVER ME AND I FOUND MYSELF CALMING HIM DOWN... THE WORDS WERE JUST COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH!
I ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP AND GOT SERIOUSLY INVOLVED WITH ANOTHER MAN, BUT HE ALSO BECAME SEVERELY VIOLENT AND ABUSIVE. ON ONE OCCASION, HE DRAGGED ME DOWN THE ROAD BY MY HAIR BELLOWING "WHORE" AT THE TOP OF HIS VOICE. THE NEIGHBOURHOOD JUST LOOKED ON. MY CRIME WAS THAT A YOUNG MAN WHO I'D NEVER MET, HAD SMILED AT ME.
SHORTLY AFTER THAT, HE WAS UNFAITHFUL TO ME AND HAD INTERCOURSE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I ENDED OUR RELATIONSHIP NOT LONG AFTERWARDS, FOR ANOTHER MAN (WHICH DIDN'T LAST).
ROUGHLY 8 MONTHS LATER, MY PRAYERS BEGAN TO GET ANSWERED AGAIN (THEY WERE ANSWERED WHEN I WAS A CHILD, BUT WERE NOT ANSWERED DURING MY TIME OF REBELLION)...
NOW THAT MY PRAYERS WERE BEING ANSWERED AGAIN EVERYTHING WAS GOING GREAT, BUT THEN I BROKE A COMMANDMENT. THE MOMENT I BROKE THE COMMANDMENT, MY ANSWERED PRAYERS FELL APART! I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND AND SCREAMED TO GOD, "WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME?!" I WAS HYSTERICAL, ABSOLUTELY DISTRAUGHT...
I WENT HOME AND GRABBED A BIBLE, WHICH FUNNILY ENOUGH I'D PICKED-UP FROM MY PARENTS HOUSE 2 DAYS EARLIER. I CRIED TO GOD "SPEAK TO ME!" I OPENED THE BIBLE, BUT NOTHING MADE SENSE. I WENT TO THE BATHROOM, STILL DEVASTATED, CRYING "I DON'T UNDERSTAND!"...
WHEN I CAME BACK, THE BIBLE WAS ON A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PAGE! IT COULD NOT HAVE BLOWN OPEN BECAUSE I HAD LAYED IT FACE-DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND I WAS THE ONLY PERSON IN THE FLAT!...
I BEGAN TO READ AND TOTALLY UNDERSTOOD! THE LORD SHOWED ME PSALM 38, WHICH CLEARLY SPEAKS ABOUT THE SUFFERING WHICH FALLS ON THOSE WHO DO NOT LISTEN TO HIM. I HAD SUFFERED BECAUSE OF MY SIN! I HAD DONE THINGS WHICH GOD SAYS NOT TO DO: THE ONE-TIME OUIJA-BOARD, PARTYING ON DRUGS, THE 'DARED' SHOPLIFTING, EXCESSIVE DRINKING, SEX WHEN NOT MARRIED, EVEN LITTLE FIBS AND GOSSIPING (THERE WERE OTHER THINGS TOO WHICH I'M NOT GOING TO BRING SHAME ON MYSELF BY MENTIONING)...
I IMMEDIATELY WAILED REPENTANCE, VOWED NEVER TO DO ANY OF THOSE THING AGAIN AND CRIED-OUT "JESUS, LET YOUR WILL BE DONE FOR MY LIFE!"
I BEGAN TO EXPERIENCE INCREDIBLE THINGS. THE VISIBLE LIGHT OF GOD'S GLORY ACTUALLY APPEARED OVER ME. IT SURROUNDED ME... LITERALLY... PHYSICALLY. I FELT SO IN LOVE WITH JESUS.
"IN THE LAST DAYS, GOD SAYS, I WILL POUR OUT MY HOLY SPIRIT ON ALL PEOPLE... I WILL SHOW WONDERS IN THE HEAVEN ABOVE AND SIGNS ON THE EARTH BELOW." (NIV- ACTS 2:17&19). NOTE THAT GOD SAYS "LAST DAYS" AND "ALL PEOPLE"!
IT WAS AROUND 8 YEARS AGO THAT I REPENTED. AS A CHRISTIAN, I'M MUCH STRONGER, HAPPIER AND CONFIDENT... AND I RESPECT MYSELF! I WOULD NEVER LET ANYONE TREAT ME THAT WAY AGAIN... BUT I have FORGIVEN THEM AND I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF, WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT. GOD HAS HEALED ME SO MUCH. HE IS DOING GREAT THINGS IN MY LIFE.
IF YOU'VE NEVER HAD A REAL EXPERIENCE WITH JESUS I ENCOURAGE YOU TO READ A NEW TESTAMENT BIBLE AND TO PRAY AND TALK TO HIM. PERHAPS YOU COULD BEGIN BY SAYING THIS PRAYER:
"DEAR GOD. THANK YOU FOR YOUR AMAZING LOVE. THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS. I ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME IF I HAVE DONE ANYTHING WHICH YOU SAY NOT TO DO. PLEASE HELP ME TO TURN AWAY FROM WHAT YOU SAY IS WRONG. JESUS, LET YOUR WILL BE DONE FOR MY LIFE. FILL ME WITH YOUR HOLY SPIRIT. THANK YOU. AMEN." JESUS LOVES YOU!
I WRITE AND SING DANCE, R&B AND GOSPEL SONGS. YOU CAN HEAR THEM AT: www.myspace.com/suzic7
I'M AVAILABLE TO SPEAK AT YOUR CHURCHES, OUTREACHES AND SCHOOLS (I WOULD TONE IT DOWN IF SPEAKING TO YOUNG PEOPLE). YOU CAN CONTACT ME VIA: www.taskjesus.co.uk OR THROUGH THE 'MYSPACE' ADDRESS ABOVE, OR AT: suzic7@yahoo.com (E-MAIL ADDRESS IS FOR BOOKINGS ONLY).
FEEL FREE TO PRINT AND DISTRIBUTE THIS TESTIMONY IF THERE IS ANYBODY YOU THINK IT COULD HELP.
GOD BLESS.
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